You know some months are just harder than others, right? Some moments are just harder than others. At least that is true for me.
A few weeks ago I was in one of those hard months with plenty of hard moments. There were times I wanted nothing more than to cry UNCLE! every second of every day with every breath I took.
That was the time when my debit card was on life support, and I was out of cash. And we had three rolls of toilet paper and two weeks until pay day. I wondered if I would need to use some of my rationed savings to get more before we ran out completely.
I decided against it. Because three double rolls and two weeks, surely a little family of 4 could make it work, right? Especially since 3 of us were out of the house for the better part of every day.
Piece of cake.
But I have girls. Teen age girls. Girls who think they need to use a plethora of toilet paper. In less than a full week we had blown through all three rolls. One roll didn’t even last 24 hours.
This Momma wasn’t happy. At all.
I informed my family, mostly my offspring, that I would not be purchasing more toilet paper until Friday. Not going to do it. We have kleenex, use that. Momma isn’t spending another penny.
Thirty-six hours later I found myself praying for of all things, toilet paper. I listed out my needs to in prayer, and topping the list was toilet paper. Toilet paper that my children squandered. Toilet paper that is not a necessity of life, a nice feature don’t get me wrong, I’m a big fan of toilet paper. But it isn’t vital to my life, especially when we had other things we could use just as well.
But I prayed for toilet paper. I didn’t pray that God would supply us with toilet paper. I just listed it as a need. Along with cereal. And something equally mundane that now escapes my memory.
I somehow knew that this would be a monumental prayer and it would have massive consequences. I knew in some ways this would be a day of turning for me.
The day wore on and I occasionally thought about my toilet paper prayer but mostly I forgot about it. When it came to mind, I mostly thought what a dumb thing to pray about.
That afternoon, I picked up my leather jacket to hang it up when I remembered I had noticed a piece of paper in the inner pocket when I put my phone away in there earlier. It was an old folded, receipt from Hobby Lobby. Curious I unfolded it to see what I had purchased and when.
That’s when I saw it.
A fresh, crisp ten dollar bill.
“Oh Lord! That is You.”
And God said, “toilet paper.”
And I said, “Yarn and coffee.”
God said, “toilet paper.”
Every time I thought of that ten dollars, I heard God say, “toilet paper”. I argued some more. Why exactly I’m not sure. Immediately when I saw it I knew what it was for. God kept just saying, “toilet paper.”
Then He changed, “Be faithful.” and I was reminded of the verse about being faithful in small things and I would be found faithful in big things.
If toilet paper isn’t a small thing I’m not sure what is. Talk about your mundane, small things. Not necessary. Not vital. Not a real need.
This taught me one very important lesson. One I had known before but not KNOWN. I knew it was true, but now I experientially know it to be true. This is one lesson I won’t soon forget.
God notices. God cares. God provides.
Why do we think something is too mundane to pray for? That God really doesn’t notice or care about that? Expect God to provide for something we’ve squandered, something we could have purchased for ourselves without a second thought but we chose not to?
Those are the very things we have to pray for if we ever hope to see God work in the big things. These are the prayers God loves to answer. Those prayers that say, “God, here is my need. You have the supply. I’m just going to sit here and watch You work on my behalf.”
He shows up big. And my faith grows big. And the next time I need toilet paper, I’ll know I can come to Him with my mundane need and find His supply.
Friend, if I can ask Him and trust Him for toilet paper, what makes you think you can’t ask and trust Him with the needs of your heart? Dear friend, He does the same for you! I’m not His favorite. He doesn’t show up big for me because He carries my picture in His wallet. He loves to show up for anyone who in humble boldness comes to Him with their need; leaves it at His feet, and watches in eager anticipation for His supply.
So go ahead, take your mundane prayers and your big ones, to His throne and you will find grace to help you in your time of need.
3 thoughts on “Toilet Paper Prayer”
Virginia! Thank you for sharing! This whole month for us has been H.A.R.D!!! God has provided but the weariness is hard to battle. I’m so glad to hear I’m not alone in my struggles and that there is other people out there who “squandered the toilet ” too. Thank you God for caring, providing, forgiving, and in funny ways showing us were not the only ones! ❤
Virginia! Thank you for sharing! This whole month for us has been H.A.R.D!!! God has provided but the weariness is hard to battle. I’m so glad to hear I’m not alone in my struggles and that there is other people out there who “squandered the toilet paper ” too. Thank you God for caring, providing, forgiving, and in funny ways showing us were not the only ones! ❤
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It will come to pass that before they call, I will answer. While they are yet speaking, I will hear. Isaiah 65:24. Our family learned this lesson years ago. Great post!
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